A jobless man on the sidewalk

In western world where the social support systems are such a previlige and available to lucky few, due to generations of &^*(*(, *&*&)(*(  that have made love and relationships such a preciuous thing here for any human’s survival. At times I think that the riskand uncertainity that lurks every moment in  relationships at any age has made these people respect and love their mates & their relationship so intensely . This very comptetion to choose the right …capable.. etc etc mate has made both men & women so refined has made them invent themselves in many ways. this very competition, this uncertainity is what that provides the motivation to invest their best efforts almost everytime coz love is rare and whatever little you recieve in the world needs to be respected and must be cherished every moment … no one here can rule out the possibility of a split up any moment.. I secretly admire and wonder how insecurity & uncertainity brings out the best behaviour… but ofcoz there is the other side to it as well…

while on the other hand in a country and society like india where any guy or girl no matter what shit he or she is can be pretty sure that they would get somebody … and this somebody no matter what is expected to stay with him/her for the rest of his/her life … never to forget buying out the bride or a groom is still a prevelant social malice.  such a ridiculous social system which in no way gives any incentive to anybody to be a better person… a system that provides a sense of security which in most of the cases had / has / and will let people take their partners for granted… and the sense of security has made us take love and support for granted which has led of gross abuse in millions of instances …Such a ridiculous social system.. man and woman in nuptial relationship are more bound by the social benefits of the realtionship and the social pressure that they think they will be under if they break out is all thats what holding a million families… Even absurd is that without any love or mutual respect you go on to procreate and create a family … At times this very way we have grown over generations to create such an absurd system makes me think – no wonder why these fellas went about conquering the world when u for generations lived in the same place, eating, sleeping, hallucinating in the name of god and religion ( one of your greatest inventions to control people ) and theorising that the guy who is naukar came from GOD’s foot and you came from the same GOD’s head – a theory that would demean humans for milleniums – theory that would make 8 yr old kids in uttarpradesh clean school toilets after school hours jus because they are children of those men who came from your hypothetical GOD’s foot.. ( Even more shocking is an episode i watched on youtube a documentry on untouchability in india- where a god man in varanasi argues that – yes untouchability is true.. god defined it and it must be so.. am sure there must be atleast 1000 fanatics there who would consider this godman to be that guru who would help them attain the ultimate mokshaa… fuck you Mr. Pujari and i feel so sorry for the system am part of… )

all these together makes me think that our civilisation has lived all throughout generations like a big fat frogs trying to find mates and trying to prove their superiority among themselves in one single well where never they experienced floods… ours is a perfect example of what would happen in a utopian socialistic world where everybody almost gets everything that he / she needs…  people wont have any respect for anything coz everybody has the same thing everybody will get same things… see such a world is not sustainable at all either the system will break down or survival will…( think about it yourself)..

welll.. i think this is quite a lot of complex things.. but this a polygon and there are multiple sides to it… so i wont conclude… its a debate its a discovery its a journey that would go on in me.. till my system one day shuts down in peace…

mmm.. where am i ? now… am here sitting on the bench in Forest area of nottingham.. right next to me s GIRI and to my left is the biker whom i did meet only about 20 mins back … this englsh chap has jus moved from sheffield to nottingham – he has quit his job to start a life with his girlfriend in nottingham, only to know that she has dumped him an hour back and is heading to London…. he s a devasted man and i can see that in his eyes the paranoia the shock the stress of unemployment in UK everything… This man in the past 20 mins has told me his story .. i donno why he did … listening to his story a million things hav criscrossed in my mind in the past 20 mins… he stands up ….says sorry for bothering us and  thans me for listening to him .. he slams his helmet and walks towards his bike…

i can now no more feel the warmth of the autumn sun on my face…. i jus stare at the old pakistani couple ( i think they are pakistani coz forest is more a pakistani area) , the aunty helps uncle pull his skull cap down right over his ears… m… GIRI jus taps me – ” pradeep, give me 15 mins – call from police :) ”…. Police – the petname he has given his girlfrnd…….