Date : 23/05/2011

Feel absolutely ripped… i just couldnt do anything… wish i could just stop thinking, talking to myself… Wish i could do some work, concentrate on something… wish i could just stop stopping short of yelling out loud in the quiet meeting… wish i hear people around me… Its very delicate mix of multidirectional anger and pain

but felt so gutted and absolutely flushed down the toilet when i realise that she didnt even feel it guess not even a second … i feel so stupid… for having slogged all those nights… for not having even told a word… i think i suck at these… though slogging wasnt definitely for that alone… i do have other equations as well.. and balacing simultaneous equations individually is a nightmare and i would need another me to do it…

i just would hav bin beter of keepin my mobile switched off on 14th may 2010… Didnt ever think that i would invest so much…wish i could blame you for everything i am in…but that definitely will be some reason to hate.. and am not going there knowingly or unknowingly..

But where to find peace?! i just hate everything i have been doing?! am just this tired of doing… i couldnt even imagine a time when i got something i wanted i needed any easily.. yeah then why would this be… am tired but i dont want to stop trying…

wish tomorrow brings some peace…