05/06/2011

a month now and nothing has changed much… I sincerely don’t know whom am mad at … Mostly its me… But I didn’t wish anything bad for anybody… I was more honest to what I believe in… But yeah am fully responsible for the state am in… Its very difficult to fall in one’s own eyes.. And am there.. For some god known reason I feel like a whore… mum certainly didn’t pray for such a ignominous folly of a child…

But one thing am angry at is that judgement part .. Hey I can’t believe that you think am worried about what others judge… Pls give me a break… It was as simple as this I keep my personal things to myself not even declare them to the closest of closest friends till what I think is right time.. Well you aren’t that way… And since this according to me is personal to me alone and not to you, I certainly would demand privacy… Hang ur judgements … Bull had I been would I be here where am in the first place…

Absolutely no meaning in fighting or being angry… I was never ready to hardsell or even soft bargain or convince you… You didn’t see it you didn’t see it… ASAT…

But the biggest question or challenge is how to stand up and face the morning when this runs in loop… but hell ya must agree never had even felt some thing 1/1000 th of this any time before in my FYI declarations… that’s something

Lets see … Now I understand why parents say that don’t get ever involved in any such things.. It fucks your happiness so much for the rest of ur life, it will poke u somewhere definitely if u want to be clean, and for sure if u have an elephant’s memory… Well gold fishes certainly have a better deal I guess … Oh my !!!! that just flowed … Yeah good if its so .